Hey internet! How ya doing on this fine day? Today I'm sharing a little piece of my story that I've been pondering lately. I know it's simple. But I know a lot of us (me included) can't really grasp it. Maybe we just know it in our heads, and not our hearts. So here goes nothing-- I've been thinking about how every person, place, and thing in my life has led me to exactly where I am today. Sure, it's easy to look back on the past and wish you could do something differently, but hey, if you'd made a different move back then, maybe you wouldn't have met the person that changed your life, been at the right place at the right time for a crazy awesome opportunity, or been able to be there for someone when they really needed you. If you had done something differently in your past, you might be letting go of a lot of the things that make you, you. And I wouldn't have all the joys.
ten year old me, doing what I love
As easy as it is to look back on the past and wish you could change it, don't. Because I'm pretty thankful for exactly where I am today. Here's an example that I haven't been too open to sharing. I grew up acting in theater, commercials, TV, etc. I LOVE (yes, it's an all caps kind of love) acting. I felt and still feel like it's engrained in my DNA strand. It's a huge part of what makes me, me. But it sure isn't the only thing that defines me. I love my Jesus. My family is the most important thing to me on this earth. Academics have always been really important to me. When I was a senior in high school, I came to a crossroads. Was I going to apply to college or not go to school and throw myself full force into acting? My parents, bless their souls, were completely supportive of either decision. I really wanted both. My whole life I had balanced academics and working, so I decided to move forward and apply to schools. In every single application essay, I wrote about how acting shaped me. How I not only learned about the art of performing, but about becoming a good human being. Being passionate and determined and stubborn about your values and staying true to who you are. And spoiler alert, that essay got me into UCLA. Now it's sometimes easy to let myself think if I had only taken a gap year and spent every waking moment auditioning and working, I might be more successful. But I also wouldn't have this sweet, challenging, wildly growing past year of being a student at UCLA. The balance has brought me to exactly where I am today. And I'm happy with that.
ten years later, twenty year old me, still doing what I love